Tearful me.. Happy me..

Feeling low this week...
All due to that monster aka office bitch..

I have done so much for the place.. In all my time there, everyone can see how much i had put in. But as it is... when u r due to be leaving the place, all ur efforts are forgotten and prob u are treated like dirt.. That is what she is doing to me of late.. Picking on all the outstanding issues and questioning on me.. N trying ways and means to make life difficult for me.
I nvr thought i would be treated like that, esp after all i had given for the place.
For once, she made me cry.. N im stronger at work than anywhere else.. Not to cry easily..
Anyway, it just turns my heart cold.. N confirms my decision not to bond myself or return to that place. It was a right decision.
Just a week more.. And i will be out of that place. That's all i am looking forward to at present.

Paid for my air ticket today... 40kg.. i hope i can lug my baggage to my hostel.. N not kill the dear fella that comes to pick me up at the airport.. heehee...

The lovely thing that happened today is.. I SAW MY FAVOURITE CUTIE for the last time today.. He is just so so so so adorably extremely totally good-looking. I mean.. he is REALLY goodlooking. Not cute. BUT good looking. My heart always melts when i see him..
hahahaha.. now.. i do not sound like an ethical therapist do i? hahahaa...
He was my patient of crse.. Considering tt we were seeing each other everyday for abt 2weeks. I had a lovely time staring at his hands n his face.hahahaha.. i sound sadistic.. hahahaa...
Ok ok.. i was not.. Just that, he's a real heart-stopper.. N in my time at that clinic, having seen SO many caucasian guys in n out.. He's the only one (ok.. there was another.. ) tt blew me off my feet. N i dont really am attracted to caucasian guys' looks much.. Im quite chiinese at heart.haha
WHen he speaks spanish... wahhh.... i can literally drool.. whahaha!!! (Heard him speaking to his mom la.. tt's why i knw.. ) Spanish speaking guy... He is gonna break so many girls' hearts when he goes to college soon... yesh.. he's only a teenager..
HAHAHAHAA.... and tt is why, im all the more amused at myself for this nutty reaction..

Okie.. enough gushing for the day.. this is so embarrassing.. But pity, i cant get his picture...
Otherwise, i will post it online.. hahahahaa....

ALrighty.. counting down the days.. exactly 3weeks to my day of departure..
Excited? no... I'm more scared actually..
Feeling kinda.... scared n unsure.........
Am i doing the right thing to go....
I will be leaving so many close frens behind.. N will our frenship still be the same..
sigh... Up to fate i gues..