Shaking Morning...

Bad bad night for me last night.. Or shld i say... bad morning...
Why?
Smth in the past caught up with me.. I found out smth that upsetted me alot..
Though it was in the past, it was really really shocking for me..
Wont mention what it is... As it's a long story.. n since its smth in the past..
hahaa...
But it really made me have the worse night since i came here...
-->>Slept@4+am for 2hrs (coudnt get to sleep at all..after wat i read..)
-->>Woken by a sudden call from someone @7am in the morning - to 'discuss' abt the smth i found out.. N realised i'd misunderstood the situation...
-->>Went back to sleep half an hr later...
-->>Woke at 1pm for class..

But it brought back things i din wanna recall nor think about..
It seems like, my peace always gets shattered If i allow myself to go near the past.
Thus.... yea... Gonna stay far far away frm the past... haha...

My fault in fact.. i was bored enough to google for stuff randomly.. N ended up finding out stuff that would affect me.. haha..

Anyway, body aint achin so much after pilates this week...
But im feelin kinda off this week... AGAIN...
My mental state has not recovered since last week's of lethargy.. haha..

Dad's health is better now... Im glad..
But he still has to go for tests and all to confirm the severity of his condition before the next step can be decided....
The stress and anxiety brought upon the whole family... Just wish that we can have a confirmed answer and solution to it soon... sigh....
If not, all of us are tearing at random each time when we think about the situation...
sighh....

This year... has been a crying year for me..
The amount of tears ive shed for the different upsetting things that happened..... Might be able to fill a small lake.. hahahaha!!
Since the start of the year to now.... Things keep happening to upset me severely..
Sigh.... when will it all just STOP!!!

okie.. now to plan dinner...
GROANSSS>>>>