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Im glad im goin away for the weekend.. Its gonna be a freakin HOT week ahead here in Melbourne.. N sydney is cooler.. so yeahh.. So glad..

Presently.. Feelin mild irritation with my Uni...
N that is cuz i am NOT thinking n bothering about wat is goin on..
There seems to be some confusion goin on about our timetable..
Till now, it is not finalised.. Fine fine.. its still another 2 wks.. So i shall jsut chill out..
Received a truckload of emails from the course admin personnel about some crap stuff being implemented(grouping of students..) which makes no sense to me..
N her email is seriously CONFUSING..
She sent 10emails n i still do not understand what crap is she talkin about..
Either my english is that terok or she really rambles on in the email makin it totally incoherent..
N it seems that what i have chosen for my elective might clash with my core module..
Which means i have to either change my elective OR change my core module's choice of topic..
N it honestly irritates the hell out of me..

Cuz i was put into an elective that i did not want in the first place..
I only found out i was in it when i was called up to ask about my second elective.. *roll eyeballs*
THE best part was... i had ALREADY SIGNED UP FOR WAT I WANTED WHEN I FIRST ENROLLED IN THE FUCKING COURSE! N they said they dont have it..
A whole group of us (intl students) signed up together.. so they lost the whole fuckin stack la..
N i had wanted to change my elective BUT they said the rest are already full..
I m pissed.. Super pissed in fact since i dunno when... with the damn UNI..
If i gotta go thru anymore shit about this clash in my modules this semester, i m so gonna flip..
Paid so much n cant get wat i want.. What is the damn point..
*chill... shall not think n get mad again.. If not my headache will return..*


Reading a new book now.. - Devil wears prada..
Yea.. i know its not a new book...
But it was lying around at my fren's place so i decided to borrow it to read..
Have watched the movie when it first came out... N i liked it..
The book seems quite different from the movie.. But then again, that is always the case..
Prefer the books to the movie cuz it is so much more in detail..
N i can picture it however i want..
haha..

Reading this book made me think a little about work n how it eats into our lives..
We seem to be slaves to our jobs..
Common excuses are always 'no choice la', ' work la.. wat to do'..'it is like that lo..'
But honestly, is it really necessary?
I m not working full time now so i guess it does not affect me as much...
But seeing my frens who are all sloggin away n always being busy busy busy..
At times, i wonder will i one day be like that too...
At least, i was once on the receiving end of someone who was a slave to his work n ended up being severely neglected... So i know how it feels n wont do that to pple i love..
I will work hard n put my best into my career..
But i hope not at the expense of my own life.. again..

Looking back to the days when i was at work... I was a slave to that place too..
I worked longer hrs than required.. Took on more duties than required..
Stressed n worried about work even at night n on wkends..
To the extent i would dream about work, or jump awake wondering about work..
(At one pt, i was dreamin of my boss at work n wakin up at midnite thinkin i was late for work..)
Especially when there was smth impt the next morning etc..
N havin my boss call me so often after working hrs n on wkends to summarise what i've to do the next day when i get into office.. N i had only just ended work 2hrs ago..
I was so on the ball the whole time i was in that company..
I was probably driving myself mental..
Family told me to fuck it n not do so much.. Yet i did love my job n the place i worked in..
Besides, i wanted things to all run smoothly n well...
Cuz if my boss is stressed up, i would probably be even more stressed up..
N i really did love the place.. Dont ask me why..
The loyalty i had for it.. n how i was treated in the end, did make me feel alot of bitterness..
I din mind puttin in so much for the company..
I did get recognised n appreciated by at least one of my boss..
N i learnt a great great deal... The way i am now partly is due to their training n teaching..
But well.. the saddest thing was still being treated so badly during my last 2weeks there..
N being accused of stuff that i did not do...

Reading the book made me think back to that period of time..
EVERYONE IS DISPENSABLE..
Working so hard n so much.. N neglecting ur loved ones n not being appreciated aint worth watever rewards u might get in the end..
At least to me, work n $ will never be more impt than my loved ones n frens..
hehee... Thou i hope i wont ever be put to the test..

Think i should get back to my packing...
The sky is so gloomy today... A mild reflection of my mood...
Feeling abit sad that im leaving this familar place.. thou i dislike it..
N feeling a bit stressed over smth else.. Which i dun want to talk about here..
A bit private.. haha.. N plus i dun want pple to worry..

okie dokie.... time to pack...