Winter is here....One more mth left..

Well.. It is the start of June..
Finally... FINALLY i can say this...
" i AM goin home nex mth!!!"
Waited one year to say this.. hahaaaa....

And well.. As i said.. Im in varying states of confusion with regards to how i feel.
Same as when i was plannin to leave one yr ago..
I probably am in the same emotional mental state now..
I guess the only reassuring bit is.. Knowin where i probably will be working.
Yep.. Am in the midst of settling and possibly confirming a position..
In Singapore of course.. haa...
Once that is settled, my mind will be at ease...

Hmm... I wonder will i get to fulfil this dream of mine..
To work overseas... Holiday work visa kinda thing..
In ulu places in UK.. For a yr or so... And another yr or so somewhere else..
Hmmm..... Shall see how it goes..
If only i dun feel the pressure of my 'ripe old age'..
If only i dun feel the pressure of 'being unmarried AND unattached' at my 'ripe old age'..
Frankly.. I dun think i shld.. hahahaa... (Guess who makes me feel the presssure??)
Cuz its like... so limiting to what u want to do and can do in life..
Yet i do.. sheehshh...
F**K..

Oh well... This past week has been quite quiet...
Not doin much.. Listenin to my dear housemate's issues with someone..
And the conclusion we came to is that..
"Men who SEEM to be very good catches BUT are still single.. MUST have smth wrong somewhere.."
hahahahaa...

To update on the irritating tutor...
USELESS. PLAIN USELESS.
Nothing left to say... She is just gonna get whacked with a nice 'feedback' email from all of us when the course ends in June.
And this email is intended to be sent directly to the head coordinator in charge of the international students intake.
Sounds fierce of us?? haaa... too bad..
Dont tink that we shld keep silent and let the subsequent batches of students suffer thru her again. Major waste of our time and efforts.

Oh.. need to complain about my irritating 'daddy'..
He has told nik that he wants us to pay additional amt as we are using electrical heaters at home.. IRRITATING PIECE OF SHIT.
Okie.. it is standard practise that u probably either split electrical bills or pay more here..
ESP in winter when u use the heaters more etc..
So... shall see how much more we have to pay.. sheshh...
Stingy old man...
Does he expect us to be wrapped up like bears at home?!
Anyway... it is gettin cold noww..... Winter IS HERE.
I like my home now... But with 'dad' n 'mom' can be quite annoying..
Thou i think dad does not dare to speak to me or highlight issues tt he has with us to me now cuz after the first few times he did it, n i THINK i gave him a very strong 'black face-im fuckin irritated with u' vibe.. He no longer dares speak to me.. N turns to Nik instead to ask her to convey to me..
HAHAHAHA... im so nice.. normally i dun scare pple away.. sighh...
Thou after his 'dun shower so late in future' & 'can u turn the music softer' & 'the pot cannot be scrubed with this thing' & blah blah blah...
I just gave him a black 'wat-do-u-want-to-nag-at-me-abt-now' look when he wanna start talkin to me.
HAHAHAHHAA....
Otherwise, im at peace with him.

Did i mention.. the house is sooo silent.. i can hear mom n dad laughin, giggling n murmurrin away at nite? hehehee..
Their bedroom is next to mine la..
Why i have my music on at nite?? yea...
i DUN WANT to hear anythin i shld not hear..
HAHAHAH..

Hmm.. i will really miss my dear housemate... Nik darling..
Our late supper nites, bitching sessions daily, dinners, outings, etc etc..
This semester of stayin with her.. has started my 'fuck it' CBT aka Cognitive Behavioural Therapy.. hahahaha...
Nik is suppose to pass on to me, how to be nonchalent and not care nor think too much about things. T
o put myslf first and love myself best.
And always be confident of who i am.
I think i did drive her mental qutie often with my 'self-absorbed moments' when i lapse into my thinking,pondering and whining of the past mode..
hahahahaa...
*thnks nik dear.. for enduring my nonsense these mths.. hugz*

Okie... This wkend will be spent doin assignments..
Going out? Dont think so... I shall stay home n do my nonsense..
Plannin to make ngoh hiang again.. hee....
Did i mention that i made it once?? Accordin to my guinea pigs, it din taste too bad..
Thou i din put in the '5-spices powder'.. hahaa...
Such a hassle to make... choppin all the stuff up...
But its fun.. hahahaa...

okie dokz.. time to do work.......
its cold AND windy now..
Time to take out my blue penguin suit again...
Been wrapped in my red hiding hood suit lately when im out..
Which makes me feel like a flasher.. hahaha.. ;p