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Still alive.. Nothing new...
Had two days off the past two days... so was happily resting at home..
Nah... i went out on one day i mean.. hah..
Went bowling with ling,jom n eugene...
Had a marvellous time laughin my arse off with ling at the guys..
hahaha...
THe bowlin alley here is quite different from the ones ive been to in Spore..
The ones here play club music super loudly in side.. n the lightings remind me of a chill out lounge/bar.. So in a way, it looks a bit like a club when u enter.. hee... Not bad.. Suits me perfect..
Since i miss clubbing ALOT!!!!!!
Was still sayin to estee that i dun think i'd ever stop clubbing.. Maybe go lesser but i would still go.. hehee.. I just enjoy being in a club.. The music.. the dancing.. Hate the smoke thou..
I dont like the stereotype people have on clubbers thou.. Does not mean that im 'immature' or 'bad' or 'wild' or anything just cuz i like to go clubs..
Not like i drink or smoke.. or even go clubs for any funky business.. chehh...
Miss my cindy so bad... my clubbing kaki.. Who has halted clubbin since i left Spore.. haha..

Feelin darn moody this few days.. Broodin alot..
Got alot on my mind again.. The uncertainty of the future..
The regrets of the past.. The stagnant present..
I dont like not bein in control of what i want...

Been thinkin alot of someone from the past too..
I miss the frenship we used to have alot.. alot..
Miss what we once shared..
Miss the calmin effect that person's voice has on me when im stressed up or upset..
well... this frenship has since wiltered..
Degenerating as time n distance widen the yawnin gap..

Waitin to go to sdyney middle of Feb..
Yet packin up n moving my stuff is also on my mind alot..
I guess im not one who likes changes.. Changes really ruffle my feathers a huge deal and upset me in a way that's not tangible or visible..
It took me a long while to really decide to move cuz i really din wanna move outta my comfort zone.. But then, since the gradual return of more n more floormates... Noise is increasin n the number of people have increased.. So i guess, moving out was a good choice thou a hassle..

Lookin forward to go sydney... To meet up with maine...
Someone i can really really talk to face to face finally...
6mths... Its a long time for me... To go without my close frens..
hahahahh....
I miss being able to speak n be understood.. N not be judged..
New people who dont know me, will probably judge me and not know the real me..
Cuz the way i portray oftentimes, aint the real me.. i feel..
hahaha....
Some probably would disagree strongly..
That would depend how really well u know me eh?
hehehee....

I hide my true emotions alot..i realise..
oh well.. WATEVER... before i start goin all woozzyy..

goin to sleep soon...
work tmr again..
its a cold week this past week n next..
SUMMER?? MY FAT ASS!!!
i m freezin in my room as i type now...
but i kinda like it.. haha.. i Like the cold more..
So havin the weather go up n down... gives me a break from the heat.. hehe..

Nitez folks..